When memorizing the Qur'ān, you may encounter problems and uncertainties. During such times, finding inspiration and motivation can make all the difference in reigniting your enthusiasm for the journey. The Quran memorization is a profound journey filled with a variety of experiences, emotions, and challenges. From moments of spiritual exaltation to periods of discouragement, the path is fraught with highs and lows that define the individual's connection with the sacred scripture. This introspective tale looks into the personal voyage of memorizing, passing through peaks of inspiration and valleys of doubt while providing insights gained from significant lessons learnt along the road.
The Lows.
Let us be honest. We are human. We have issues, mood swings, iman swings, a lack of motivation, illness, travel, and Satanic whispering to contend with. Sometimes, regular prayers became a chore, let alone revision and memorization of the Quran. There were days when I was juggling too many things. Some days, I only wanted to sleep and relax on vacation. The mountain appeared too steep to climb. The journey had its highs and lows. However, the truth is that, despite everything, you will have fantastic days filled with sunshine if you push yourself to complete your daily goals on rainy days. Only if you can get through the lows will you be able to enjoy the incredible highs!
And The Highs
Yes, there were days when I could not get enough of the Quran and wanted to absorb its warmth. There were days when the Quran spoke directly to my heart. There were days when I felt enormously grateful to be on this path. Some days, opening the Mushaf would bring tears to my eyes. Sometimes I felt like I could exchange the world to continue and finish my hifdh. Yes, there were stunning days and nights. And then there was that day, which remains the happiest of my life when I finally finished the hifdh. I cannot even begin to put that day into words.
Eyes on the prize.
On a long and arduous trip, what keeps one going is remembering the end--both in this world and the next. I often opened the last page and fantasized about the day I would eventually get there. Count the pages remaining until the end. I would be enjoying the ride while wishing for the destination. And then there is the ultimate goal, the end. There is a Day to Come that I continue to imagine, and it is what keeps me going. That is the Day when, inshaALLAH, it shall be said to me in front of all creation.
"Recite and rise in a measured and musical tone (tarteel), like you used to do in the dunya. Then truly, your station will be at the final ayah that you utter."
I envisage al-Firdaus station, directly beneath Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala's Throne. InshaAllah, I see my parents receiving crowns and magnificent robes to wear.